Now, I have to applause Mother Nature for it's quirky sarcasm. For it manipulated our mind into thinking that something actually means another. And we use all our senses and instincts to judge things. And it's this bias judgement that makes us regret for our way of doing be it negative or positive. I must admit, I've done pretty horrid judgments upon people myself solely based on my opinion on them. Ignoring the effort to find out their true colors. Unfortunately, it's this resulted prejudice that have made me make the wrong moves. As fucking ridiculous as it is, some people just turn out in total contrary from what you think they were. And that's the truth. Correction, that's the truth for now, because anything can happen.
Is this the subtle attitude you want to show off to us? Because if it is, you've really amazed me and showed me how manipulative the world can get. And congratulations on that. And for that, you've won a vast inventory of my foot in your ass. Gosh, you make Osama seem like an angel.
Honey, are you still putting on that mask? Because the facade's fading off and we can see your true skin which a heartless soul hides within. This masquerade you're playing has long ended. The truth's out. It's over. Your selfishness to have your heart set on love had really outshine everything. Hence, putting friendships and people's feelings in jeopardy. You've sacrificed someone on the altar of such self-centeredness and your heartless soul have amazed me. And it's through hearing all the shit about the harsh words that came out of your mouth, that I uncovered all your flaws which I would never expect from a person I used to love dearly. I'm not implying that I don't own any, don't be mistaken. I own many in fact. Too many to count? Well, to sum it all up, I'm neither impeccable nor a total sinner. As flawed as a human can be. Yet, I've never seen any person with such a heartless attitude. Do you even have a heart?
You've angered me. Angered me so much, the anger in turn morph into regrets.
Regret in choosing you as a friend.
Regret in wasting my effort to flood you with my love and care.
Regret in wasting time to make you smile.
Regret in appreciating your presence in my life.
Regret in allowing you to make an impression in my life.
Regret in approving you as someone that can make me happy.
Regret the fact that I actually fell for you.
Regret even more, the thoughts that I actually believe you would catch me.
Regret in making you happy.
Regret in actually trusting you.
Regret in believing our friendship would last.
Regret in seeing myself almost falling into your trap.
Regret in believing your honey-coated sweet talk.
Regret in caring about you.
Regret in even thinking about you and smiling while I'm at it, in the past.
Regret in taking time to know about you.
Regret in not turning back and saying no when introduction started.
I've always said regretting is stupid. And yes, I'm still sticking to that. Dude, you make me feel stupid. Stupid for being so oblivious when the answer's lying right infront of my eyes. The fucking truth that is too surprising to be true. The complexity of your sudden change of attitude have utterly change my perspective of you. You've torn so many hearts and have made up so many lies while you're at it. I'm dying to get inside of you and scrape out the living shit out of you.
Preventing you to breathe. Preventing your heart to pump. Preventing you to live. Preventing you to create heaps of lies and false excuses. Preventing yet another heart getting broken. Preventing valuable friendships from deteriorating.
It has just dawned on me that you should never stick to your narrow-minded judgment towards a person. People change. And other people's feelings get affected as the transformation starts. Whether it's drastic or not, it varies from person to person. It had really hit me that things rarely turn out the way you want it to be. Right when you're at the pinnacle of success in your life, a phenomenon attacks you. Crumbling everything into pieces. Everything you once own. Nothing would ever remain the same.
Your sudden change in behavior have taught me never to be too complacent. Always work to find out the truth and not just stick to our views. We should always take time to realize that life is never a straight road. We would always experience hiccups in life. Random ups and downs.
Despite that, your cold attitude have taught me nobody's perfect. Initially the saying used to be an enigma, but now I truly understand it. You've opened up my eyes and made me realized the manipulative world I'm currently living in. With beings putting up false plays to make them seem better. But now I know, it's nothing but fiction. A lie. A stupid, deliberate lie that would cause nothing but pain afterwards. Now what used to be the vague and fogged glass of my life have been cleaned and cleared, I can see clearly now. Deception and deceit will no longer be taken aback. I'll be prepared come what may, I think.
You should no longer conceal the truth my dear, because the cat's out of the bag. And your lies have been told. The plays have long ended and you're caught red-handed. Don't pretend anymore for we're sick of your pathetic game. I hate that I actually believed you were true. You're inhuman for goodness sake. I shall no longer be succumbed to entertain your pitiful messages enticing me back to believing you were once my loved one.
The past shall remain as that. And the hatred shall remain burning. I love that I hate you. I really do.