Reptilia,

Now I have to feign happiness. I repeatedly lose the reverie in my actions. Now all I have is nothing. I'm grounded till next year. My phone has been confiscated. So who do I turn to at a time like this? I can't even meet my friends. On top of that, the sight of me irks my family members. What do I do? This incessant pain of shouldering the fact of my uselessness has finally break me, inside and out. I am only given an hour after any school-related stuff to get home. So, that equates to an hour for lepaking/journey home. Which most probably be spent alone. Was this mandatory? Hm, you would know when something's really wrong when a person who doesn't cry cries a lot. Condolences to my body. And welcome my state of fragility.God, why am I so fucking pathetic? Why do I find euphoria in the bad doings? Why am I so stubborn? And why am I so useless?! I hate myself for getting into a good-girl-gone-bad crisis. Fuck, I need somebody, anybody, everybody. :(