To you;

I'm sorry. I've been saying that multiple times it doesn't seem to make sense now. The way you would say a certain word repeatedly and suddenly it just seems like you've mispronounced it. My mind's clogged up with the defiance to make the right choices. I am stuck with my wrongdoings. I'm too filled with dejection I can't think of anything to say to you anymore to make up for the damage I've done. I've been telling myself over and over again how you would be so much better of without me, but time and time again I ignore that fact for I need you so much. And I took advantage of your stagnant presence. I made you face all kinds of shit and I am wrong. I made you feel all the wrong emotions. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to know I'm a fucking bitch. I made you shed worthless tears everyday. If only, I could rewind time and correct all my wrongs I would, I really would for you deserve so much better than what you've settled for. Replace me please, it would be easy. I wasn't in the right state of mind to think, to make the right decision, I told you to say no, I wanted to stay and walk with you but you said Go, so I went. I shouldn't have left you. Now what I'm left with is regret and sorrow. But that is still inferior to the amount of pain I've made you go through alone. I miss you terribly, and I swear I never cried so much before. I hate myself so fucking much right now, for repeatedly letting go of you. I don't ever want to, ever. Would you believe me for the last time? FML.