Really didn't realize what I have till its gone. Didn't mean to put our friendship at stake but, hm, I'm sorry. I mean what else could I say that I've not already said really? I want you to know how I feel but you don't want to talk to me, so all I can say is sorry. God, sometimes, I wonder why I'm so fucking stupid. Nsbb, don't you know you're my everlasting pillar of support. If you're not there, how am I suppose to stand. God, I hate myself. Seriously. Who else can I talk to now?