The Liar and the Lighter,

Maybe it's just not meant to be. Everything, I mean everything is opposing against it. So why should this continue? Think about it. I'm just so confused. There's millions of things that I want to tell you. But I can't. I'm restricted by everything. Why do I feel like whatever I do, I shouldn't. I feel unconscious and I feel numb. I don't know what to feel anymore. I'm oblivious to the rights and attracted to the wrongs. Why does everything that happened felt so wrong? Is it wrong? Is it for real? Are you for real? Stop it. This can't happen anymore. I don't want to keep hurting. Everything's a blur. I can't control it anymore. I don't think I can help myself. So I should just fucking stop it. Stop everything. Trap myself in the denial that the feelings gone. I need to "Chill".