Be the guy who loves her more than she does. Be that guy who would say sorry even if its not even your fault. And if you are, the more you should. Be that guy that says i love you before you hang up. Be that guy that doesn't hang up. Well, before she does. Be that guy who stays up for her because she can't sleep. Be that guy that says goodnight before she does, because you want her night to end well like how the day went with you. Be that guy who asks her out. Be that guy who wants to go out not because she asks you to but because you want to. be that guy that doesn't need to have something to do with her, or a place to go out with her, or run an errand for her, or any reasons to go out with her to want to go out with her. Be that guy who will sit by her side just to watch her breathe, because that itself is the world's most beautiful thing. Be the guy who'll hold her hand when she asks to you to leave out of anger. be that guy who reminds her you love her before she forgets, before she even has time to doubt it. Be that guy who would hug her when she cries. Be the guy who doesn't make her cry. Be that guy who will be there no matter how far she is, no matter how tired you are, no matter how late at night it is, no matter which party you're attending, no matter how much you want to sleep, no matter how boring it is to just watch her cry her eyes out, no matter how ugly she looks when she does because the moment she stops crying and looks up to you with a smile, you know it's all worthwhile. Be the guy who would hug her in the cinema even before she says "I'm cold". Be that guy who gives your jacket or if possible whatever you're wearing just so she won't catch a cold. Be there when she's sick, lovesick especially. Be there when she misses you. Let her be there for you too. Be that guy who shares his deepest darkest secret wit her, so she'll know you trust her. /be that guy who allows her to go out with other guy friends without ay ifs or buts, because you trust her. Be that guy who doesn't want to go out with other girls even if she allows, and even if you allowed her to go out with other girls, because she's the only female you want to go out with. be the guy who will text her first. Be that guy who will wait by the phone when she doesn't reply. be that guy who pushes aside her ego because his relationship with that girl is much more treasured than his ego. Be that guy who will promise not to let go, and means it, and shows it and doesn't let go. Be that guy who would watch sappy, romance movies with her, because she wants you to. Be that guy who acts like the hero in that sappy 90 minutes shit you were forced to watch when you'd rather watch a soccer match somewhere else. Be that guy who thinks even eleven guys cannot compare to that one beautiful lady of his. Don't be the gay guy. Be that guy who would cancel his plans with his friends because she's stuck at home alone. Be that guy to be there for her even when she has nothing to talk about. Be that guy who initiates the talk, not the break up. be that guy who understands her before thinking about himself. Be that guy who tries his sincere best to understand and apologizes when he doesn't but still stick by her side. Be that guy who writes her notes saying you miss her. Be that guy who gives her random sweet surprises, like a hug from behind when she's suppose to meet you. Be that guy who would wait for her from the time you wake up to the time she arrives, when she's suppose to go to your house. Be that guy who wants to change for her, be a better person for her, because she deserves it. be thankful for her, be appreciative of her presence, be apologetic even if you're not at fault. Be that guy you never were.
For all the things you never did to me, do it to someone else. I love you, always have, always will. But i guess, I shouldn't anymore.
Goodbye, Nicholas, birthday boy and doggy. May you take care of him.
(sorry if there's any grammatical error, or any spelling mistakes. my hands are trembling, my brain's not better either so yeah)