Goddamnit, it feels as if I was just slapped with a plastic bag filled with rotten chicken ass and durian shells with the chicken doing a tectonic dance and with a fusion of techno and trance filling my ears.
All of this drew my attention as all my senses was on the verge of corruption. I felt like someone just shot me on my forehead, awaking me, making me see the truth.
The denial:
previous post. (Now this is the part where you look at the previous post and gorge out your eyes and hold 'em out in front of your pretty face and say, "Now eyes, be my witness as I make this promise. I vow to never in the history of forever and ever write like this girl ever again. Seriously." And then you can put your eyes back, if you want. If you can't put it back, use super glue. If that doesn't work, I'm sorry, I'm no doctor)
The truth:
I'm living a great life. It's just I'm seeing things through broken glass. I need to see with a different light. I'm surrounded by loved ones. Ones with imperfections that make them all so perfect. Them, who make heroes look like failures. Them, who makes the time spent on them all very worthwhile. Them, whom I am not obliged to share a portion of my heart with. Them, who've thought me many different things in life. Them, who fills my life with colors. Them, which equates to my WHOLE LIFE.
In alphabetical order,
Le (Simpsons) Family,
Even though i don't say it much, deeeeeep, deep down in my heart its these idiots that make up my whole family that have taught me that life has its ups and downs. These are the people that elevated my maturity level. They have taught me things outside the context of just mere schoolwork. I owe them so much for giving me the life better than I can ever expect, not that I've ever had the time to think of an elaborate scheme on how my life's going to be, but if I ever did, the life I'm living now is way, waaaaaaaaaaay greater, happier, exciting, my vocabulary ship is sinking, so I shall not waste anymore of my brain juice to lengthen this description for I reckon you should already get the idea but if you don't then that's just sad. I love you guys oh so very much. From the top, Mohamad Jalil Bin A, Zaliha A, Siti Munirah bte J, Mohd Sallehan Bin J, Siti Mulyati bte J and last but not least Mohd Syahiran bin J.
Le Dona Eleanor Mae W.
Thank you very much for being there to fill my days. You're always the clown when I need emergency entertainment, my guidance counsellor when I'm faced with problems, my ice-cream whenever I'm feeling down and lastly, my twin, who would always agree with my foolish decisions without hesitation. You've made my secondary life so fun, ah screw that, you've made my life seem a whole lot exciting when it's at its worst. The train rides, causeway point, the countless laughter, the exchange of secrets, block 543, the waiting for absolutely nothing. For all those beautiful nothingness, I love you very much dudette.
Le Irah rashid.
Even though, we're rather distant now, you never fail to be the one who'll inject some sense into my mind. You're advices are priceless. And the conversations between us will never be forgotten. You've taught me so much and in a way you grew me up a little. The little connection we have seems to be fading little by little, day by day, and it hurts me to realize that and not do anything about it. Hm, I wish you all the best for your O's. And of course the rest of your life. A person like you deserves glory. I love you honey!
Le Michelle Goh Jia Ling.
This retarded bitch is the only moron who would make me break my laughing box but I'll still love her. Even though we rarely get to spend time together as girlfriends, you always make it a point that we should. The stupid faces and very cold, super duperly icy cold jokes, is etched in my mind. And of course, the trail of asthmatic laughter or sometimes the random smacking or swaying of body towards me when you laugh. Damn you asshole, i love you chellychellylomcampas.
Le Nadhir Rafiq Tan Chin Ning.
Hah, even though I always call you stupid/bitch/fucker/asshole/chibai/ass/gay/mean/moron/basket/basketball or some other (nice) descriptions of you, I still love you. Thanks for always being there when I need a listening ear. And also for the joy in our meetings. Thanks for all the smiles you've put on my face and all the laughter you've filled me with. Thanks for filling some of my random nights with stupid and long late night phone-calls. Takecare bestfriend/indian(fake)boyf/bitch/pek/apek/youyou.
Le Rachel Dass D/O Harry Dass.
This lame-o have filled my days with so much laughter. Thanks for the times when we would participate in a slap-a-thon with only us as participants. and we'll just bitchslap from dawn to dusk. Or just end up in a full body cast but still laughing all the way on the journey to the hospital. Damn, you're the only talking ewe that I would share a portion of my stupid life with. Thanks for all the advices you've given me. You've made me realize that image doesn't matter, it's your ability to not be bothered by critics that shines through. I love you deepdeepdeepsuperdamndeeplikeseriouslydeeeeeeeeeplah honhon.
Le Nursyida Binte B.
I love my guardian angel so much. She possess the magic of making me be myself towards her. And I thank her soooooo much. She's gone through thick and thin with me and we're still going strong. She's my alarm clock when I need to see the truth, when I need to be awoken, mentally. She arranges the pieces of my complicated mind and fixes the puzzle whenever I spill to her my shit (hah, this sounds funny). She's my very own jukebox who has a long antenna protruding on her head with a satellite plate spinning to produce me information on the latest gossips/music/gigs/shops. I LOVE HER!
Nur Syazana Binte H.
Hm, I'm rather sad that we're growing apart. But fret not, Catwoman always saves the day, right dude? All the googoogahgahs over the latest fashion and Hollywood gossips really tickles me whenever I think about it. You've taught me a great lesson that I would remember for the rest of my life, and that is it's a lady's confidence that makes them sexy and the ability to shut people's criticism out. Thanks for being there when tears filled my eyes. And also thanks for being there whenever I'm happy too, sharing my happiness with you. For all the things you've done, I must say you deserve a standing ovation. Like they say, it's not over till the (skinny) lady sings. I love you dudetttttttttttteeeeee so much (lah sey). okay, ew let me slap myself.
Zachary Wong Jun Jie.
Hello distant brother. I'm rather upset at how our friendship is right now. Hm, nevertheless I'll always get cheered up whenever I think of the past with you. You've shown me how to look at the world with a different view. You're taught me so much things, I feel like I owe you a living. You were always the one whom I can talk to about almost anything under the sun. You're a role model I look up to. You've made me realize how beautiful life is by being like a brother I never had. You've stretched me to my limits, challenging myself to do better every time, and now I seem like I've gotten the upperhand of living a great life with your help. Thanks for your never-ending guidance, Zachy. I love you dude and all the best in life.
Classmates/Schoolmates.
if you fall in this list, you've been granted a bag of air. Please claim your prize from myra. Thank you for making my life a wee bit more exciting to live. Day by day, I feel like my early mornings at school are all worthwhile. All the laughter and joy shared between us. The exchange of smiles when I see you guys. The little inside joke that plays in our head when we see each other. From 1E2 to 2E2 to currently, 3E2, I believe you guys instill great motivation in me. And you guys in a way change me, change me for the better. You guys inject my boring weekdays with love. Thanks for all the paperplanes/ folded hearts/ crushed ice thrown at me/ love letters/ secret letters/ secrets/ joy/ laughter/ tears/ french fries/ boredom/ excitement/ nothing/ everything. I love every single one of you, honeybunnys.